It's strange... So much has changed...

...121 Rend, slash, bleed, trash.

...118 You may be wondering what the hell those two last chapters were about.

...116 Original name Carajé, Didacus was born part of a brazillian indigenous tribe on the amazon forest.

...114 You know what?

...111 When i'm down, you bring me up

...108 The moment i woke up today i knew it was gonna be a shitty day.

...105 Therapist day.

...101 Today i petted a dog.

...95 Today i cried on my walk.

...93 So i sent kind of a message to atlas saying i got distressed cause of jealously.

...88 It's so bizzare talking about this, but here goes nothing.

...80 Today my sis' ex boyfriend went home.

...74 I can see the world with my own mind

...64 Sorrow bliss pain pleasure love hate friendship not.

...55 Atlas talked with me today.

...41 What's stopping me? What's making me not kill myself?

...31 I feel incomplete.

...13 Do i even have hope anymore?

Why do i cry? what do i so desperately want? All of a sudden i just want to cry and cry and not stop. I want to feel loved, truly loved and cared by someone. Why can't i feel this. Why must i suffer l...