This is the first of many that I wrote on my road to recovery This is called... Empty
If I died today, what would they put in my eulogy? Would they say the truth? Or just call it another tragedy? Would they say a memory in detail? Or so vague that anyone can “know” me? Does anyone really know me?
If I went today, who would follow tomorrow? For death comes in three's, would I start that line of sorrow? Would you say you loved me? Or feel guilt cause you never had? Feel sad for a week, then to move on from this memory? Regret the things you did or didn't say?
"Can't live for yourself? Then live for me" you say? I can’t live for me, nor can I for you. I Cant live for anyone. That's something I can't do. You can move on from this memory. You don't depend on me. You don't need me. Yes its sad but you can still be happy.
I can't live for you and I can't live for me. You don't depend on me... No one depends on me.... They depend on me... For my pets, I can make it til tomorrow. One more day so they wont lose me.
If I died today you could move on. But what would they feel, When I don’t show for tomorrow? It's not much but everything to me. Silly to you, but good enough reason for me.
A reason that’s unconventional. Not for you...but for the love of my animals... I’ll wait until tomorrow.