Review: She blushes then looks to the floor, she drops my hands, I hear her hesitate when she says "I- I've got to go..." I search her face, trying to figure out what I did wrong. "-Kate." But she was already rushing toward the door. I feel like something ended. Or began.
Now: Not long after that, my mom came to pick me up. "What's wrong, Hun?" mom asks as I get into the car "Nothing, mom."
The ride home was silent. As soon as we got home I ran upstairs to my bedroom before mom could start bombarding me with questions.
I'm opening up my laptop, that's when I see it on the bottom right corner: a text message bubble, I click it.
It's a voice recording and after it loads a second or two Kates sad teary voice starts speaking, "Hello Bryce, it's me, Kate. I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for being such a mess.
I don't know what I want. But I do know what I don't want to lose, and I really don't want to lose you, even though I'm about to move away...
If you don't want to stay in touch it's okay, I understand. Well, I guess I just wanted to say bye... We move in a couple of days and after that you won't have to put up with me anymore...
My eyes are glazed over with tears. I don't know why this makes me so sad, but I know what I have to do; I click the record button and start talking,
I don't know how I already knew what to say but it all came out easily and gracefully. "Kate, you are not a mess and I don't put up with you at all.
You are the most beautiful person I've ever met.
And, yes, I will keep in touch with you, Ill actually call you every day if that's what it takes to make you happy and also, I don't want to lose you either."
now I'm embarrassed, but I also feel good, because I said every day I look forward to see those famil, pale eyes disappear as she smiles, To see those delicate fingers that might, just might, weave through mine.
I shutdown my lap-top, and get ready for bed. Its not even close to bedtime but I just got to lay down for a while and think.