I don't understand.
This concept is still so far away from me, just beyond the grasp of my comprehesion.
Why. Why did this have to happen to me?
I'm standing here,
I'm standing here, speechless.
I'm standing here, speechless. Shocked.
I'm standing here, speechless. Shocked. Mad.
My hands are numb and sweaty, my ears are ringing and my surroundings are conjoining to one giant mess of colors and lights through the curtain of my salty tears.
And I just don't...
And I just don't...understand.
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to go? Where is your journey taking you?
To another place?...
To another place?... ...To a better place?
But who could take better care of you than me?!
But who could take better care of you than me?! I am the one you're suppossed to be with!
... So why...?
... So why...? Why did you have to go?
You were only 9,99$ and the last one in size L, you were perfect!
You and me could have been a thing but YOU had to choose someone else over ME...
I wipe the tears away with the sleeve of my sweater and turn around.
With big steps I leave the H&M, telling myself that sometimes it's truly better to buy before you think...
...Or else you might regret Losing the One and Only shirt your size that looks really good on you for a change.