I lay my head down sinking into my pillow. As I drown in my thoughts, many different emotions are flushing through my delicate body.
Memories from my youth come to mind just as my darkest thoughts haunt me.
I break down. Struggling to breath, shaking from head to toe I tried to forget. Deep in sorrowful thought, I lift my head. Reminiscing of what could have been.
The best times come to mind as the ghost of the past revisits. I feel your soft olive skin brushing onto my pale rosy skin giving me warmth, and relaxation.
I gasp for breath as you kiss my plump dainty lips once more. Im soon awaken from my fantasy. As I turn to reality I feel some sort of emptiness that will forever lie up on me.
Knowing I have to face you everyday makes me feel anxious and feels me with depression as it reminds me of what we had.
My lullaby has turned into a loud weeping.
I awake everyday hoping for a new start, looking in the mirror picking out my flaws.
Every slight bit of eye contact it feels me with cation. Walking the school halls I feel sick, my tummy is turning.
As the others stand high and proud I droop low and drag my feel across the hard cold concrete.
Eyes latched onto me making me feel enclosed, desperate for some respect I rush into the grimy bathrooms. Reading abuse of the back of the door I cry once more. This is me .