You want to know what it is like to be an addict?
Have you ever seen 50 first dates?
It is exactly like that.
Every day you use and every day you come to the conclusion that you should stop.
You go to sleep, resolute.
Howeve, the next day Adam Sandler wakes you up and plays you a video filled with the highlights of your addict life and so you repeat the process; forgetting what is going to come.
Addiction is a disease of amnesia. It is a disease that in the end leaves you alone and morally bankrupt.
It is a disease that will bring you to your knees only to offer you a hand up. It is relentless. It is evolving.
And it is always waiting.