There was a guy which I loved with all my heart but he didn't love me the same way I did and that was what broke me.
We dated for 3 years but we were nothing serious but of coure I got attached it wasn't my wish but it have happend. I had no control about it .
It all started from a text "Hi" he used to tell me to meet up but because of my insecurities, trust issues and also self-esteem I denied it untill one day I went to the feast with my friend ,
and he was there perfect as hell. At first I tried to hide but than I've decied to show up... I askes his frien to be sure he is the same guy. He was.
Unexpectedly hus friend asked him to go on a date with me infront of the group.
He accepted but he yold us to go downstairs at the toilet because he was too shy to kiss me infront of everybody, so we did. 3 people joined us , a couple and the one who asked him .
I was way to shy and I wasn't going to kiss him first obviously. The just pushed him at me and we went to the corner and kissed. We kept talking and meeting up but he wasn't good to me.
The same day we commited he said he like my "bestfrien" so yeah we broke up .
I'm not the type of person who give up thats why I choose to stay friends with him although it hurted me but I knew our story couldn't stop there ...
we still used to kiss and go on a dates but it wasn't real he saw it as a fun thing . For him our relationship was a game and my heart was the joystick. He had changed.
He started do drugs and ruin his life and obviously I wasn"t going to let him. I fid anything I could to stop him but I meant nothing, my words meant nothing.
I wasn't going to give up on him not now and never. He just did me so wrong that I couldn't recognize good.
He cheated, he got out with my cousin and he also lied that he wasn't in a relationship just so we can kiss. He cheted on them with me ,yeah even on my cousin.
He called me to meet ul and I said no because I was trying to move on but he begged me until I said yes. I went to the playground where we agreed to meet so I give him a cigarette.
He came with a cigarette at his hands and I told him "why have you asked me too met up for a cigarette when you have a whole paccket,
I thought you didn't have" he said "I just wanted to meet up". We sat on a bank and he moved closley to my face,my heart was beating fast.
I knew what was going to happen but what I didn't know was that he was in a relationship with my cousin .
That night he walked me to my home and I asked him with "do you love me?
If not I have to move on and once I move on I will never look backk" his eyes wher filled with tears and he kissed me and told me "I have to go".
Hos girlfiend which is also my cousin, that night posted a picture with me. I wasn't sure what was I going to do so I told her everything . He said it wasn'r true but it was.
He just ended with her and he came back to me as usuall... I accepted him although I was trying to move on . I hate it, I hate him ... whenever ai tried to move on he came back .
But it has an ending, our relationship ended on bad terms.. he used me. Yeah I am talking about my virginity , i just gave it to him . I was at hia housed and our friends was there.
We laid on the bed and we kissed , when our friends saw that, they left so we could talk but instead of talking he just starting things and I couldn't say no.
I loved him way too much to say no and also it was my wish to do it with him the first time and now I really regret it but I cannot do anything. It is my fault I am the one to blame.
I still love him but we are not even friends