Every hour, every minute, every second of repair
All the masks I have to choose from everytime the alarm sounds at 6 sharp
All the baggage I thought I got rid of
“Fake until you make it” But who will I be then
The picture that used to be so clear has once changed again but this time
The scars will last forever just like the ones before cause no matter what, the pain still overcomes me
No matter the person no matter the place, the feeling always is their
The days that went by with me not knowing if I could rip myself out of this cycle before hurting you end before I could realize I am stuck
Never once did I want to cause you the pain I feel every day cause I know what it costs
DESPAIR that EMERGED FOREVER that will never be GONE and it costed me EVERYTHING.
At least until I can find a way to get out of this cycle I know that I will never have my heart open again...