The minutes seem to stop, my mind goes into overdrive
What if’s pile like a mountain of shame blocking out all light and warmth!
Did I say something wrong? What if what was meant as a harmless subject upset instead?
Could I really be so bad to hurt someone I wanted to uplift? How is it I can’t say anything right?
My mind envisions a ball of crystal clear beauty slip past my tear filled shaking fingers and shatter into a million shards of regrets.
The nights become tortured dreams as I fear I do the last thing I want, and a voice echos in my mind this is why you’ll always be alone!!
All I wanted was to connect on a deeper level and instead I misspoke and turned a beautiful soul and incredible person away!
A life full of fear and regrets that I will always say something wrong. And if these fears are true then I truly deserve to be alone