You force yourself to forget trauma- but as soon as someone else relates to yours.. your mourn their pain instead. Almost like- a way to avoid facing your reality.. while looking the other way. Cheating almost..
Curious about the quote.. I looked into it more. I sat by myself many times and thought about it. “Danger can dance like we do?..”
So I put it to the test. I put myself in situations. Dangerous situations.. instead of facing the flame. Instead of talking about my trauma.. I “influenced” and “inflicted” more onto myself.
To influence trauma; well many assume that the issues are yours to face alone, when put into a scenario where a man can’t control his hands... ￼ his thoughts or his body. It becomes your fault?
Ignorant minds don’t go unnoticed or unseen. When in a room full of light your darkness can cloud up so much.. just by saying something so... disheartening. How can it be my fault?
To challenge my own mind, telling myself that.. “if I lock it away it’ll go away. The trauma won’t find me.” Next thing I know I wake up next to another empty bottle.
Hiding away from your issues leads to build up of more. Find someone to talk to. As stupid as it may sound.. there are so many like you and me. I’m 21 now.. and still drinking cause i refuse to speak.
But you can talk to me. I’ll listen. Depression, anxiety.. PTSD.. and many others things hold me in a chokehold. Let’s create a safe haven. Talk to me.
My trauma; I was molested and we also believe raped, on multiple occasions. I was 6,7,8 and 9. Starting drinking at 10... to suppress my feelings.
Got diagnosed with: Anxiety: age 10 Depression: age 11 PTSD: 16 You’re not alone.