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lexitrains of thought
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how to lose yourself for the quality of your poems

muse

by lexi

it is not his birthday.

i think of him anyways.

how it used to be to feel raging suns in my chest

like newborn kindling

what it is like to hurt intensely, so that you can taste it

smell it inhabit the fibers of your core.

what it is like to always have something

to write poetry about

i think of him anyways.

assuring myself that i am content with solace

and i am, i am

content with solace.

it is just harder to write when the only person i can use

as a proper muse

is myself.

so i think of him anyways.

until these words are not my own & this heart is not my home

because when you have allowed yourself to deteriorate so deeply into you diary entries no longer

are you capable of writing new ones.

so you wait until his birthday

when it is acceptable to emotionally collapse for the sake of

one. good. poem.

but you know — i know — you will still write of him anyways

when it is not his birthday.

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justshutupxdBronze CommaA writer making the world brighter
7 months agoReply
I used to write with my muse. We have a book together that sadly was never completed. It is rather sad because I fell in love with those characters just as much as I was in love with him. And I cannot wait till his birthday and where it is acceptable to be upset because seeing someone who means that much to you everyday and not be able to say anything is heartbreaking. I miss my muse.

ReasonsofbeingBronze CommaTo know me, read me (;
a year agoReply
I feel like I do the same sometimes, but not with my poems...my poems help heal me, while the book I'm writing about my heartbreak might just tear me apart.

ivoryannaliseCommabassadorWriter, Reader, YouTuber, and Artist
a year agoReply
This was so...amazing. I makes me thinks about how far we are all willing to go for the sake of brings words to life.

shanaSilver CommaCommunity member
a year agoReply
ahh is this a guy still in your life?