The nightmares are getting stronger, they won’t stop, I see him every night he won't leave me alone, sometimes I feel like i'm getting choked and then I wake up with red marks on my neck.
You know how people say “they’re only nightmares don't worry” yea well with me they aren't only 'nightmares', every night I wake up crying and shaking with marks on my skin.
And not all the nightmares are the same but the one nightmare that pops in my head almost every single night would be his.
Now I don't wanna sound paranoid but I kinda am because now even when i'm not asleep I still see him even during the day like I could start to zone out and he will appear.
A few weeks ago I was in class and I started to zone out when I looked to my right and thought I saw him sitting a few seats away from me I literally stood up and people looked at me like I
was crazy, when I looked back at the guy he was back to normal like he was never there and I know he wasn't but it felt like it.
The nightmares don’t just stop there, sometimes, my friends are in them, my family everyone I know sometimes it's all too much for me but I can't stop them no matter how much I try.
Sometimes in my dreams I feel like i'm drowning in the nightmares like they just shoot at me like bullets from a gun.
The dreams I have make me feel weak like it's my fault this is happening like my fears and weaknesses are finally catching up, all this time I pretend to be a tough, strong,
fearless person when really i'm just a mess on the inside i'm a volcano waiting to erupt.
The nightmares don't just stop there now instead of waking up with tears and my body shaking I don't wake up… I stay asleep but… I talk in my sleep… and now it's about me not about anyone else,
now i'm the victim, on Monday I had this dream where i'm strapped down on a bed and I have bugs crawling on my body… and there's no way for me to getaway...
sometimes I feel paranoid someone is watching me.