Having anxiety is the worst. It acts up at random and doesn't go away until you either find a way to distract yourself and bottle it up, or you get out the short, easy, and worst way.
I stay awake until I can't keep my eyes open anymore
Waiting for the fear to go away, not being able to move
I can't close my eyes The nightmares will come and I won't be able to wake up
I stay silent. I stay still. My fingers are cold to the touch. My eyes open and red from crying.
Inside my head I am screaming and flailing but on the outside I am calm.
My hands on my ears, my mind is going wild.
When will it stop?
Why won't it end?
No amount of music and comfort can help
I want to reach out for help but my voice is drowned out by my head's taunts and laughs
I apologize for something I can't control
I'm so tired
I'm so scared
I scream in fear of what my brain can do to me
But no one can hear me