it is truly crazy how one day you could be the happiest girl, so in love, so ready to take on the world.
then the next day, it all comes crashing down. the world has turned its back on you.
suddenly, what was so dear to you is gone.
it's fucking crazy.
it's fucking crazy how you can just give up like that.
let me go like i didn't mean anything to you.
what about those nights i fell asleep in your arms?
what about all those laughs we shared?
what about us?
did you forget how much i loved you?
how much i still love you?
it's fucking crazy that you're the only person i want to talk to, and i can't.
you hurt me and all i can think about is how you're dealing with it.
that's fucking crazy.
do you know how hard it is to look at you?
you look like you're moving on so easily.
do you know how bad i want to jump into your arms and tell you it's all okay?
do you know?
i miss you so much my heart feels like it's crumbling.
and it's fucking crazy
that you don't care at all.
but, fuck the excuses.
if you wanted to be with me you would find any way to be with me.
i guess thats the lesson i had to learn from you.
i cant wait for the day the thought of you doesn't feel like a stab in the chest.
i cant wait for the feeling of loving and being loved back.
i may be sad. i may be angry.
but, i really truly wish the best for you, i hope you find what you're looking for.
and i want you to know i wouldn't trade the memory of you for the world
and that's fucking crazy.