Its so hard to get away from it,
but how can I quit?
Started with it 5 years ago,
living with it in the shadow.
Its calming me so much,
just like gods touch.
The pain feels so good,
when I am able to see my blood.
I try to get clean,
but now I am addicted to nicotine.
So I smoke and harm myself,
I dont fucking care about my health.
I want to cut so deep that I die,
go to never ending sleep with this last lullaby.