why can't I be still
In sync with the waves of the wind
consecutive with the cold burn of winter's kiss
at peace with my mind.
and the demons it harbours
i'm waking up day by day
going to bed night by night
and change is at utmost tragically close.
the most irrelevant notions eat at my brain
while time continues to spin slowly
making me dizzy.
I think I can only look up from here
but I keep going deeper
into this abyss of darkness and misery.
my sorrows feel normal
and being sad has become a habit.
I crave wellness
but encourage sabotage.
Where are you?
Why must you hide?
on the brink of insanity