kayurquhartI'm a newly-adult ace :)
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a forgotten story of lost memories


by kateurquhart

A hundred thousand lives I've lived.

Or so they tell me.

I don't remember any of them.

For me, life does not exist beyond these four walls, painted a depressing grey – the colour of a raincloud welling up with all of humanity's sorrows.

It's chipping, cracking, falling apart at the edges.

Just like me.

There are heavy, woollen blankets spilling over my fragile legs.

Legs that once climbed mountains, crossed deserts, braved fire and winds. That's what they tell me

It all sounds so foreign.

Like stories.

They tell me my name is Laura.

But I don't want to know my name. I don't really care.

I want to know her name, though. The girl in the painting.

She watches over me.

There's something familiar about her face, but I don't know why. I don't even know my own face.

Why would I, when I don't remember who I am?

I don't know my name.

I used to. There was a time when I remembered, but it was years ago.

I know it started with an L.

Lauren? Lily? Liz?

I'm frightened.

I don't know where I am.

Where am I?

Who am I?

There's a woman screaming. I can hear her. There's a voice calling out for help.

Where is it coming from?

A shrill, terrified, earth-shattering voice.

I know that voice.

It's mine.

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10 months agoReply
@LostInMyDreams I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather and great aunt. It must have been really hard losing them in that way. Thanks for sharing that with me!

kayurquhartBronze CommaI'm a newly-adult ace :)
10 months agoReply
@bernardtwindwil I'm glad you enjoyed it! I volunteered in the dementia ward of a nursing home for a few weeks, so I got some first hand experience with people suffering from it, and it broke my heart knowing how confused and frightened some of them were.

LostInMyDreamsCommabassadorDelving deeper into the unknown
10 months agoReply
Even though I cried. I still enjoyed it. I watched my grandfather and my great aunt (his sister) suffer with Alzheimers and I was able to feel this story. This story is amazing. The imagery and excellent word selection took me back to the time my family members suffered and it tapped into my fear of one day being in their shoes. Great job!

bernardtwindwilGold CommaGranddad & story teller,
10 months agoReply
This was one of the best portrayals of dementia I have ever read. It was sensitive to the dignity everyone wants to maintain. The shifts in cognizance were so well written I actually got a lump in my throat. This was beautiful. Great job!!!!!!!!!