Lovely Expectations

He always made me

He always made me feel like there was something

He always made me feel like there was something wrong with me.

It was never intentional,

It was never intentional, Yet became perpetual.

Those three words

Those three words became habitual,

Those three words became habitual, Hanging with eventual longing.

I tried mouthing the poisoned tip

I tried mouthing the poisoned tip of belonging,

I tried mouthing the poisoned tip of belonging, All while knowing

I tried mouthing the poisoned tip of belonging, All while knowing I never wanted to be

I tried mouthing the poisoned tip of belonging, All while knowing I never wanted to be his anything.

I held strong,

I held strong, Because deep down,

I held strong, Because deep down, I knew it was wrong.

Wrong to have these words

Wrong to have these words Twisted out of me.

His love for me

His love for me Was not my responsibility,

His love for me Was not my responsibility, Nor worth losing my autonomy.

The right guy will value

The right guy will value My individuality,

The right guy will value My individuality, Without his love interfering.

He will cradle the softest

He will cradle the softest part of me.

He will listen to the quietest

He will listen to the quietest part of me.

He will love the hardest

He will love the hardest part of me.

He will be the reason

He will be the reason I learn to love

He will be the reason I learn to love completely.