It's 10:59 pm Tomorrow I'll be 18 Tomorrow I'll be 18
There's tears running down my face It's been a long time since I felt this way I'll be 18.. I'll be..
The world is blurred by my thoughts It's too much 18
The world gets smaller with each minute It's 11:01 18 years old
I'm so young and I know it I'm no longer young and I know that too I'm in between life stages
I'm neither one or the other I'm something lost in the middle Something I don't know how to be
Why am I crying? I'm going to be 18 I'll be..
11:03 the time keeps moving Soon I'll be 18
I could still die Maybe I won't make it Maybe I'll never be 18
I'm going to die I can feel it coming Clawing it's way to me, death isn't subtle
The longer I wait for it The more I fear it I'm going to be 18
They say the good die young But they just didn't have time to turn bad They didn't know death was coming
Everyone dies young 200 years wouldn't be long enough for me 100, 99, 98, 18
I'm going to be 18 I should be so happy Why am I crying?
11:07 11:08 :09
I looked in the mirror and I saw a stranger She wasn't alive She was a skeleton
She was a zombie She was a ghost She was in tears
11:12 Time crawls by And yet speeds so quickly along
Time is a man made concept God is a man made concept Life is a man made concept
Why am I here? If other animals are content, It's because they lack humanity
Humanity gives you ambition Humanity gives you dreams Humanity gives you knowledge
Life doesn't give you enough time Life doesn't give you enough time Humanity let's you know you don't have time
11:15 Why am I writing this? Who could I mail it to?
Who would care? Why am I crying? Why am I here?
11:18 The tears are slowing down I'm going to be 18
11:25 the anticipation is getting me I wish I had someone to kiss me at midnight
11:36 My stomach hurts I haven't eaten since noon
11:43 Should I go to sleep? Would I rather feel the shift or avoid it?
Could I fall asleep that fast? Would there even be a shift? Do I want there to be?
11:55 My eyes are heavy and my phone is dying I want to watch the day end
11:56 I'm worried I'll feel different I'm worried I'll feel the same
11:59 Soon I'll be 18 Why am I crying?
12:00 am April 13, 2016 Happy birthday to me