I really don’t know why I’m writing this,
Perhaps because I know that this wouldn’t reach you, So here I am, letting my sober thoughts out in the world.
Do you still have the digital camera that we used to bring in our whereabouts?
I still have its memory card, and I always watch our videos. Those hilarious videos have been my cure to loneliness.
What’s your favorite? Mine’s recording 023115, the one where we are in a wishing fountain.
Remember that fountain? It was supposed to be for Typhoon victims, but you wished for "Forever" instead. I even scolded you for doing that, but you defended with a kiss.
I forgave you, obviously.
Do you still stroll around our university? I hope that Uni's prankster Zorro won’t bug you like the first time we went there.
Do you still remember that incident? I was about to slap him, only to find out that everything was a prank. I remembered how furious and ashamed I was, but your smile brightened me up.
I can never forget your laugh that day, how your sweet laugh erased every drop of embarrassment.
If you still do stroll around, please tell me that you’re with someone, I would be relieved.
Because I know how you hate walking alone.
Do you still watch Friends? I still do.
If you do, please don't watch the one with the prom tape. You always cry whenever you watch that episode, I even tease you about it.
But if you can’t resist the temptation, make sure that someone’s going to wipe your tears away.
Because we can never watch it together again.
Do you still miss me?
Because I’m freaking missing you right now.
Do you know how hard it is to wake up every morning, realizing that you’re not and will never be here?
I miss you.
I still do.
Our lives shouldn’t have changed.
If things never screwed up, I’m still with you, holding your hand,
gazing at your gorgeous face as we stroll around,
recording every priceless moment,
cracking up in Chandler’s sarcastic jokes.
If everything’s the same as they were before, I’m still your companion,
If everything’s the same as they were before, I’m still your companion, your story critic,
If everything’s the same as they were before, I’m still your companion, your story critic, your lobster,
If everything’s the same as they were before, I’m still your companion, your story critic, your lobster, and your girl.
Do you still love me?
I never stopped.