He wu'd play w/ me, I will run after his trail till I'm out of breath, for a sec I will forget the worlds problems and he will shake dirt from his thick fur, then we ll stir at each other in disbelief. W'd see the city togather, the width, breath of it, we saw the ocean, he loved it so much, the view was life. For a moment i had taken it all in, jumping around with unrest, I jumped into the ocean, submitted my all to it , held ma breath: I lost all conciousness, I cant measure the depth it took me, buh felt a strong grip on me pulling back, it was never going let me go, I wasn't fighting on, I wasn't strong enough. I inhaled the breath of life, it's a disgusting smell, I open ma eyes, spat the ocean out from ma belly, I found strength to rise to ma feet. I seem angry at at the wind, I couldn't tell from which direction , I didnt know which way I was heading, the current of the wave was strong, it swept me to the place I could feel the ground. I saw him standing next to me, looking at me, confused perhaps, he knew what he had done, I ignored him and started off. I wish he'd gone the opposite way, I saw his shadow from the sun's reflection. He looked different, weird different; like a giant with strong arms and two long legs, and a basket ball size head. W/ those arms, he pulled me out, I died in heart of the water,this monster brought me back. I turned back for a better look, it was just Boobi, so innocent, sincere, whimpering and shivering; I knew he needed my hug and i needed to embrace my life saver.I was reborn.
We got to the crossroad, despaired, not sure what lied ahead, he sped on , it was silly, I called after him, selfishly i wish he had, he was long gone, then he reappeared, I kicked it for not heeding caution, but he kept leading on to a lone path, there was something about it; It had no soul on it, now I wanted go back, the discontent filling ma heart, the greed of my desire, but for a certain a human curiosity, perhaps was reason I kept going, he'd never left ma side, he 'd never lead me to malice, he alway cared for me, I was concerned, he'd gone w/ me thru to the lowest, now he will w/ me to the uncertain, to the future even unto death, what may come,
~ I got lost in the depth part of the city;the warmth from his breath, the touch of his fur , and the assurance of his forever protection; He was in pain in my pain, he'd lick man wounds and wipe my tears. He understood my whispers when I didnt have words, It's like he understood the voice of my heart. He defied me when I needed to be alone, he'd tag along in defiance, I will refuse to share my morsel as reward for his disobedience. I run out of ways to set him free from ma weird path. We had a devoted relationship and had become the inseparable pair.
We sent him home.
He'd become a memory. Everyone moved home and some others just on. } I was in denial, nights and nights I would go visits and gossip and chat except this times he only listened and not say a word. I felt frustrated he wouldn't want to talk with me. I got angry with everything. I got more angry I never told him how much I loved him, I was sorry for not hugging him as much as I should, I cried so hard for not showing him so much love that he deserved. Nobody seems to understand my grief and and imagine ma pain. I'd council to speak w/ someone who understood how I felt but nobody listens better ; Jerry was terrible. I told boobi that; i imagined what he would've said , so I promised I will not go back to curb sides, I promised he will always be love of my life.
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