Standing on that high dive above my friends
Their muffled cheers of encouragement echoing
from beyond that blurry tunnel to the edge of the board.
But ten feet may as well be fifty as I stood there frozen
Here I was - a grown man who still didn’t know how to swim
One step stood between a moment of letting go..
..and months of painful early mornings
Rationally, I knew that I could just walk across the bottom
I can hold my breath long enough.
But icy adrenaline raced thru my veins locking up my muscles
Seconds felt like minutes turning into hours
Sooner or later, someone would have to take me off
I remember a Sunday magazine article about Navy pilots..
..being the best in the world.
Watching movies of jets screaming across the skies..
I dreamed of being one of them - the best of the best.
Now it all came down to this one step -
One step between me and flying at Mach 2
“Fear is the mind killer.. Fear is the mind killer..”
That Bene Gesserit litany from Dune echoed in my mind.
I wish I could tell you how I was finally able to do it
Take a step that let me fly in a training jet
Take a step that let me get paid to learn how to fly
All I know is..
“In the cave you fear to enter..
..Lies the treasure you seek” - Joseph Campbell