Was It Easy?


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TRIGGER WARNING: This contains direct reference to suicide, self harm. Please do NOT read if you're sensitive to such issues!

Was It Easy?

This is a very personal experience... Please do not judge... I just want to let you all know that living maybe hard, but goodbye was harder! IT WASN'T EASY

Pains,

Pains, Tunneled vision,

Pains, Red hot pains Tunneled vision,

Pains, Red hot pains Tunneled vision, This sensation I must escape...

'Do it, that's the only way...'

'Do it, that's the only way...' 'Noooo, no, no...I won't let go'

'Do it, that's the only way...' 'You think you can win boy?

'Do it, that's the only way...' 'You think you can win boy? This pain, this guilt, this feeling of being low...

'Do it, that's the only way...' 'You think you can win boy? This pain, this guilt, this feeling of being low...they stay'

The well used knife calling me to it,

The well used knife calling me to it, 'I am your only friend,

The well used knife calling me to it, 'I am your only friend, none cares,

The well used knife calling me to it, 'I am your only friend, none cares, don't you get it?'

My skin tingles as I reach out,

My skin tingles as I reach out, Hesitantly...

My skin tingles as I reach out, Hesitantly... 'Your pains will be gone',

My skin tingles as I reach out, Hesitantly... 'Your pains will be gone', The knife whispers

My skin tingles as I reach out, Hesitantly... 'Your pains will be gone', The knife whispers reassuringly...

Empty bottles topple over to the ground

Empty bottles topple over to the ground I grab the knife hard,

Empty bottles topple over to the ground I grab the knife hard, knuckles white,

Just

Just a

Just a few

Just a few cuts,

Just a few cuts, as easy as they sound

Lights reflecting of its sharp end...

Lights reflecting of its sharp end... I touch it on my wrist

Lights reflecting of its sharp end... I touch it on my wrist A thin line of blood appears

I

I watch

I watch mesmerized

I watch mesmerized as

I watch mesmerized as drops

I watch mesmerized as drops descend

My mind is calm now,

My mind is calm now, Thoughts escaping,

My mind is calm now, Thoughts escaping, pains absconding...

My mind is calm now, Thoughts escaping, pains absconding... As I watch my life flowing away

My mind is calm now, Thoughts escaping, pains absconding... As I watch my life flowing away I thank the knife for keeping its vow

2 days later

2 days later a familiar scent tickles my nose

2 days later a familiar scent tickles my nose Throbbing pains screaming the FIASCO of the path I chose!

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