I used to think I'd find love. If you gave me enough time then I'd be able to eventually find someone that would love me like I'd love them.
Sure it was a fantasy and a dream that anyone would risk lots to happen. But I wasn't aware of the world. The world has never been in favor of anyone.
Sure the rich and the poor have different lives but who finds true love? A love where it's not about appearance, status, wealth or knowledge. A love where you both connect on a different level.
I've come to the conclusion that this doesn't exist. I've never had a boy friend irl but doesn't that just prove more? It shows that love isn't easy.
I know it won't be easy but I just wanna find the right person. Not someone who would be using me or talking trash about me behind my back.
I would want someone who would brag about me even when I'm not there. Someone who would be my best friend. Someone who understands that I have flaws but love the rest of me for who I am.
Someone who can listen to me without questioning what's wrong with my sanity. Basically, someone non-existent. Someone that I'll never be able to find.
I don't want to be their last nor second option. I wanna be their first. Their absolute first choice. And I know I'm young. I haven't even stepped out of the comfort of my mother's arms.
I'm new to the world of love. Hell, I haven't even joined the world of love. You just know for a fact that the journey will be difficult and it will take a lot of time.
I will be disappointed many times over. But I can't just give up my hope of finding that one perfect person for me. My mate for life. The person that is my other half.
That one person who will understand and try to make me feel better even if I'm being impossible. It's a wish, I know. A wish that I have high hopes in.
To be able to find that person would fix all sorrows. It'd be the most over powered thing in the world if it was granted. A life partner that would be there for you no matter anything.
Someone that is loyal to you until the end. That is my greatest wish.