It's starting again. I feel the emptiness sweeping through me. My shoulders become heavy. My knees grow weak. The wave smashes into me. I'm drowning. I can't breathe.
I try to inhale but I cannot. I feel a fire in my lungs. I'm drowning. I look up into the dark sky. I reach up into the emptiness. I can see them.
Memories or the ghost of a past life, I'm not sure. I'm sobbing now. I'm saying something but the words are unintelligible. The waves are unrelenting. I can't breathe.
I looked up into the darkness. I can see them. My kids. My family. A shattered mirror of a past life. One I'm not ready to let go of. I reach into the sky.
I try to grab hold of these broken shards. I try to pull them under me. I'm trying to float. It's not working. I'm drowning.