Hello, Ashton. How are you today?
I hope you are well, even in light of the events that happened today.
I don't have the slightest clue of what you are thinking now. I mean, how could I? I'm dead.
I don't know why you always stuck so close to me. I was a nerd who was picked on, and you are the school's golden boy. Classically cliche, isn't it?
Well, I used to assume that the reason you stuck by me was pity, or maybe even a dare. Then, I started to warm up to you.
Ashton, you're smart, funny, and too kind for your own good. I admire that and more about you.
You have all of those good qualities, so why did you choose to hang out with me? I was nothing, and I'm even more so nothing now.
I would just like to say so mething to try to help you, just in case you need it.
There was nothing you could have done to stop me from doing this. It was my choice due to some things happening in my life that I'm sure you're aware of.
I mean, how could you not notice my tear-stained cheeks and red eyes? How could you not notice how I would flinch whenever you were too loud or suddenly touched me.
I suppose that all of that were just side effects of the bullying.
There was nothing you could have done. I apologize for doing this so suddenly, but it is for the best.
You now have the freedom to be with deserving people, and I am now safe out of the way of harm.
Thank you for always being there for me.
I love you Ashton, maybe more than the way a best friend should love her best friend.
I thought I should at least tell you now.
I love you. Stay safe. Don't be reckless. Stay true to yourself. Go get that scholarship, you hear me?
I love you to the moon and back.
P.S. Don't come to visit me too soon. I'll see you when your time comes. I'll make sure to watch over you until then.