She was tired of keeping the friendly persona that she had kept for so long.
She was on the edge of screaming to the top of her lungs and wanted to point out all the flaws and ignorance that the person behind the screen was obviously doing.
“Are you this clueless? To act completely oblivious to the fact that I have feelings, too? Every day, I feel like I’m drowning in questions I’ll never find the answers to.
Like I’m about to jump off where the sidewalk ends,” She typed furiously, hoping the other person could feel the angry heat of her voice against their cold heart.
“Oh, I am so sorry! I just got caught up in how wonderful everything had been,” they sent back. She felt the ignorance slap her across the face, and felt the sting for a while.
“Do you think I give a damn about the path you went down when I was headed there myself? Then, you pushed me onto the road of heartache? I’m happy for you, I truly am.
But, you know about the war that has been in my head for what feels like forever. You know how tired of fighting I am. I want to be fought for.
It’s very immature to complain about how great everything is. You had double of what I could even dream of having.
You took it for granted, and then you lost everything! Welcome to the path you ignorantly pushed me on.
Now, we’re both stuck here until we decided to suck it up, move on, and take the next step in our lives.”
“I don’t know, it was so great though!”
“You think I don’t know that? I had paradise and exactly what you had until my parade got rained.
It was like the forecast said high temperatures, and then a thunderstorm electrocuted me and left me not knowing where I was.”
“You think you’re confused? You should feel what I’m going through!”
“Don’t you dare say your battles are more deadly than mine. You have all the answers, and all the sources to get them.
I’m tired, of everything! Your ignorance and rudeness, and his fear of commitment! But I’m the nice girl, right? I’m the person who apologizes for someone else’s mistakes? I guess that’s true.
I’m sorry you had more than I could ever ask for. I’m sorry you had it all for a longer time than me. I hope you enjoyed it. So, fuck you, but have a nice day.”
She shut off her phone but woke up. She was back in reality.
She finished typing up what she would say if there were no consequences onto a word document and wrapped up the ending of a rant that turned into a story.
Maybe, she would share her true emotions someday.