Don't get me wrong. I am I really happy that you're doing this
That you're going to go make your life better and learn to be happy again and grow into the amazing person that you can be.
I am happy for you in that sense. But everyday my chest cracks back open and my eyes are dark waterfalls and my voice is like boulders crashing down as I scream.
Silence is my worst enemie especially when the darkness covers the night sky like the blankets I use to cover my numb sad body.
Don't get me wrong I want you to live an amazing life. I want you to look forward to waking up everyday to a new blue sky and endless possibilities.
It's just I wish you looked forward to waking up wrapped around me and not in dark blankets.