To my past self,
I will never forget you.
Because of you,
I've made the most progress I've ever made.
Even the smallest improvement in a day,
Results in even bigger successes.
We've been through quite the journey together, haven't we?
We continue to brave these obstacles together,
Refusing to give up during the darkest of times.
You've showed me why I should've given life a chance rather than resort to suicide,
Yes, I ended up in the emergency room five times because of you, but it turned out to be just what I needed each time.
It's you-- you're the one who showed me how strong I really am.
You're the one who has fought so hard to get to where I am today.
Nineteen months clean.
Never did I think I'd reach a day, a week, even one month, but look at me now.
I will continue to live-- to share my story, to work towards my goals, to provide hope to others.
I'm here for a reason, and you've proven that to me.
You may have been at the verge of giving up, but that's nothing to be ashamed of.
It was the fifth time that I realized I had been saved and you were the one who brought me there.
You will always be a part of me and I will never allow shame to define you,
And I won't forget everything that you have done for me.