//Did you lose someone?// -isolee




//Did you lose someone?//

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isolee With an impulse for the dramatic
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How did we do it? - about those first few days after loss and all those years after.

//Did you lose someone?// -isolee

Did you lose someone?

Did you lose someone? I'm sorry.

Did you lose someone? I'm sorry. No matter if you lost them willfully or they misplaced themselves intentionally,

Did you lose someone? I'm sorry. No matter if you lost them willfully or they misplaced themselves intentionally, you're grieving.

If you held their hand as I did while they shuddered through their last breaths,

or sat waiting for the message on your couch,

or sat waiting for the message on your couch, your hope slowly ebbing away,

or sat waiting for the message on your couch, your hope slowly ebbing away, every breath a process,

or sat waiting for the message on your couch, your hope slowly ebbing away, every breath a process, I'm very sorry.

How did we do it, that first night,

How did we do it, that first night, that first morning after?

How did we get dressed?

How did we get dressed? Did we drink our coffee on automatic?

How did we get dressed? Did we drink our coffee on automatic? All those years since our first step on toddler feet,

was it practice for this?

Did we struggle with our socks,

Did we struggle with our socks, did we cry over buttons,

Did we struggle with our socks, did we cry over buttons, did we scream at ties?

Or were we silent,

Or were we silent, thinking ourselves undeserving of sorrow and rage?

Or were we silent, thinking ourselves undeserving of sorrow and rage? Did we do them all, suddenly switching from sound to stillness,

Or were we silent, thinking ourselves undeserving of sorrow and rage? Did we do them all, suddenly switching from sound to stillness, wishing it would change that one important fact of their absence?

I forget.

I forget. But I'm sorry you had to go through that.

And when years had passed and they all thought that surely by now,

And when years had passed and they all thought that surely by now, you must have healed,

And when years had passed and they all thought that surely by now, you must have healed, must not grieve still,

And when years had passed and they all thought that surely by now, you must have healed, must not grieve still, did we say something to correct them?

If not, then let me say something,

If not, then let me say something, so you will never have to repeat it.

The message is this, and it's very simple:

The message is this, and it's very simple: Life goes on

The message is this, and it's very simple: Life goes on but it's not the same.

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