Not really sure what to do about you, but the fact that I've fell for you is for sure true.
Wasn't sure what to say, and so I even turned to pray.
Turns out someone else did, and I'm definitely not one to kid.
Not sure what you're doing with him, even though I know exactly what you're doing with him.
Truth is, I always dreamed of something between us.
But just like that, it seems that's a bust.
You don't know what I'd give to take his place, and get that feeling of floating in space.
Used to talk everynight, you was my best friend.
Now although it's not as often, I never want it to end.
In fact, I'm talking to you as I write this.
Of course, I can't say anything, even to get that bliss.
Now I'm never sure if you're busy or getting busy.
It kills me to think about you two, how you his boo.
You say you don't want it anymore, and yet you always go back for more
No matter what I say, no matter how much I try to show you the way.
You always track back to him, as my light gets dim.
It's like I'm living in TV static, all the shit recently has been kind of traumatic.
Of course I won't let anything show, or let anyone else know.
Back in the day you'd be the first I turn to, but these days I'm not sure what to do.
I want you to be happy deep down, but listening about him I can't help but frown.
Thought I was in love, and I guess I still do.
But now, the question is, with who?
Not sure if it's with you, or my first true love, or just another actor.
I need someone to guide me, but these days everyone just seems to deny me.
Holding on for dear life to friends, because I really can't let that shit end.
Then where would I be?
Would I even be me?
Or just another lonely teenager