I fell and I've been down here for a while.
But I've done a lot since You.
I drove over 2000 miles in a week. I went from coastline to coastline to see how the water moved.
I found new places and sang different songs.
I drove to the CN tower one Tuesday night at 11 pm.
I've always wanted to do that, and I did. I was standing on the edge of a cliff looking over the moon on the water and said "I wonder what this looks like in Toronto" so I went to find out.
I walked down the street spinning looking at the towering buildings saying to myself "TORONTO. I AM IN FUCKING TORONTO" hahahaha
I used my purse as a pillow on a ledge under the tower smoking a cigarette laughing to myself. I watched the trains pull in.
I walked around the block smoking and laughing and a single thought came into my mind "I can be happy without him, look. I can feel that rush, that excitement again, without him."
I don't need You to feel happy or excited.
Then I started doing drugs. The same excitement came and I said to myself "SEE. I DON'T NEED HIM TO FEEL THIS WAY."
And then I had a one night stand.
And then I failed my assignment.
And then I saw you again.
I had 7 more beers.
But it's okay because I'm back to normal. Dog days are over. I bought 10 pounds of clay and made an ash tray like yours because I loved that little flower pot.
I feel like me again.
I gained 10 pounds and I feel okay.
But I've done a lot since you.
I drove over 2000 miles.
Fucked someone else.
Snorted some shit.
That's what I did.
I found myself, again.
And let me tell you.. she's one hell of a fucking woman.
I'm glad I met you.
In the process of losing you I met someone better.