Traumatized

aphenphosmphobia

aphenphosmphobia: the fear of being touched

These fists are full of my ashened dreams

of my ashened dreams, and those scarred memories

and those scarred memories impulses in my brain

eyes are now afraid to look behind

to look behind, its fear still

to look behind, its fear still dashes in my veins

to look behind, its fear still dashes in my veins.

It was the same day

It was the same day; with the gypsy wind

with the gypsy wind whooshing beneath

whooshing beneath the star ridden space

the star ridden space, and i could feel the caress

and i could feel the caress of moonlight

and i could feel the caress of moonlight on my proud elated face.

those murky street lights were

those murky street lights were f r l c i i e k n g

those murky street lights were flickering

those murky street lights were flickering constantly

were flickering constantly, as if exhausted from

as if exhausted from standing at the road sides,

standing at the road sides, I think I walked upon the right path

I think I walked upon the right path, for the whole noxious game

for the whole noxious game was played by the time.

for the whole noxious game was played by the time..

for the whole noxious game was played by the time...

and now

and now I just want to be alone

I want to be in a place

I want to be in a place which is booked just for me.

where i can be safe

where i can be safe from their wicked smiles

where i can be safe from their wicked smiles and vicious cruelty,

wicked smiles and vicious cruelty, hellish malice and barbarity,

hellish malice and barbarity, where I can accomplish my dreams

where I can accomplish my dreams without any fear of unbridled savagery.

Please

Please stay away from me

Every day I crave for your touch

Every day I crave for your touch But still I don't want you to come near me

But still I don't want you to come near me Maybe you can understand that it hurts

Maybe you can understand that it hurts So for now

Maybe you can understand that it hurts So for now that way let me be.

Don't worry

Don't worry I will be okay

Ritvika 3 February 2021