Welcome to the Void
Welcome to the Void poem stories
  35
  •  
  0
  •   1 comment
Share

dr4pos
dr4pos Community member
Autoplay OFF   •   8 months ago
How do you recognize someone with a "High functioning depression"?

Welcome to the Void

How do you recognize someone with a "High functioning depression"

why is it called that way?

why do people have it?

why do I have it?

I ... hate to have it

Obviously

it's called that way because those people are depressed, often constantly but still manage to live their life.

almost unbothered.

others don't notice it because they can do their jobs like any other.

or deal with people pretty normally.

some even don't realize themself that they have it because they just think:

"Yeah I'm just down again." which can be true.

but people with it have it for a Loooooong time

mostly for multiple years,

or decades even.

I have depression since my earliest childhood

always asking questions no one could answer.

always bullied by everybody for no reason.

I wanted to kill everybody including me.

I wanted to show them how much actual meaning this world has.

Nothing

Not a single one.

I wanted to die because of that a long time ago.

but I always managed to back up because...

there always was someone I could help

someone I hoped would miss me

I hoped...

and yet nothing I ever thought

nothing I ever felt ...

vanished

ever.

all the sadness

the hopelessness

the sorrow

the pain

...

the memories.

...

they all stayed

never leaving me alone.

I have times where I don't think about them,

times where I am "HAPPY".

cause everything in my free time

EVERY

THING

IS MEANT TO DISTRACT ME FROM IT.

TO KEEP THOSE THOUGHTS AWAY

TO MAKE ME FEEL GOOD AT SOME POINT

TO MAKE ME

FEEL HAPPY

AT SOME POINT.

TO MAKE ME STOP

TO FEEL EMPTY

ALL THE TIME

FOR JUST ONE SECOND

...

what does that have to do with High functioning depression?

I am 24 at the moment. 25 soon.

and I am like this since kindergarten.

since "Highschool" barely anyone noticed.

barely anyone seemed to care.

seem to realize.

seem

to see.

I started to write things like this because I realized

...

denying it makes things worse

denying it,

makes you fake.

be FUCKING honest to yourself and say how you feel.

don't brag about it and try to get attention.

just say honestly how you feel.

THEY DON'T NEED to understand you.

YOU NEED to understand you.

cause you are your own.

And even if I know that there is no reason at all for us to be.

To even exist.

I also know

WE MAKE OUR OWN REASONS.

and we don't need to be understood if we manage to get along with others.

and even if you don't.

there are people who can understand you

who can get along with you

...

And if you feel Depressed like me,

all the time.

so much or often that you just feel numb.

then I'll greet you

smiling

with open arms

and say:

"Welcome to the Void"

Stories We Think You'll Love 💕

Get The App

App Store
COMMENTS (1)
SHOUTOUTS (0)