Romanticizing Pain

This is not meant to be a poem

This is not meant to be a story

This is meant to be a Statement

A statement that not only reflects my Opinion.

I really ... REALLY wanted to write about something else but...

I need to get this out of my system

It poisons me and my thoughts more than I expected

I can't do anything if I don't get rid of this

13 Reasons why Is not AND UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES

EVER

A GOOD SERIES.

yes it got its fans

and it's weirdly praised

but it's not good.

as someone who went through almost everything that was portrayed in this series.

and yes, even as I Male I got Raped by one of my best friends at this time.

and similarly abused as a child by someone I trusted back then

As someone who went through these types of things

IS THIS SERIES AN INSULT

like a personal attack

cause I never really got over those things

I never really saw any reason in my life

I NEVER had someone that I truly trusted

and yet I'm still alive

25 years old.

writing the "molesting part" down for the first time.

and I never went through so much god damn trouble

just to mess with someone in order to be dead at this time.

...

This series makes everything looks like it's ok

or reasonable

or even Romantic

to kill yourself and leave everything in shambles then you went through those.

...

And no this is not just about this series

this is about everything

and everyone

that is romanticizing going through this stuff for some reason.

I understand that some might live through that stuff and try to handle it that way

but it's not at all beautiful

not all romantic

It's not even at all wishable

having Psychological issues

like in my case, Suicidal thoughts and depression

just to name a few.

IS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE

IT'S NOT GREAT

NOT ROMANTIC

NOT BEAUTIFUL

AND THE ONLY PEOPLE I WISH THAT

ARE MY GREATEST ENEMIES

Yeah I listen to a lot of great songs about it

from people who live with similar issues like me

for example

josh a

jake hill

Natwantstobattle

BUT

if I ever would make a song about that

I'd like to make it more and more distorted to the end

just like I wrote one of my poems

"Nervous Breakdown"

Cause I don't want you to enjoy this to the end

I want you to empathize

I want you to understand

IT'S NOT PRETTY

IT'S NOT BEAUTIFULL

IT'S NOT FUCKING FUN

to go through this

and if you still don't get it

I wish you get what you want.

The Issues I never asked for

and which will never leave me

...

to come back to the series I Mentioned

do you want to know what my greatest disappointment was then I watched it?

The moment then the boy was about to shoot everybody in this school

and got stopped

as someone who went through all this shit.

Him creating a School massacre

would've been the Best ending that series could've had.

Thanks for your time

and I hope you understand me