it can have many varieties.
sometimes you can get violent
sometimes you can get silent
sometimes you scream
and sometimes you cry
it's not easy to deal with one.
I hope for you that you will have someone that understands
feeling under pressure while that is the worst.
having no one to open up to is painful
having to hide it is torture.
its can be caused by little things
things you were aware of
things you accepted
things were you thought:
That this ain't get me mad.
I was asked some things
things I were aware of
things I told myself
but still, I began to pull my own hair
wanted to break everything
started hitting myself.
wanted to smash my head.
I remained still.
for ten minutes.
not the usual void
everything I know
is neglecting me
I was locked in this position I was in
my arms pressed against my head
I don't know how I got out
I don't know how I managed to move
I don't know how I
I did the things which were bothering me
I did the things I was told to do
but then I fled
into my room
where no one can see me
I don't know why
I don't know how long
I know I caught myself
and remained unnoticed
waiting till my eyes turned to normal
waiting till someone will ask for me
wanted to destroy everything before
and was a prisoner of my own mind
I don't want to bother anyone
I don't want anyone to suffer
I don't want anyone to be worried about me
but I'm honest as much as I can be
I just want to end it
so no one will ever be worried about me