What Should Have Happened (vs. what actually happened)
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What Should Have Happened (vs. what actually happened)

by devonsummers

What should have happened:

dad loves his kid enough to stop wasting money he doesn’t have on phone hookers.

What actually happened:

dad is a pathological liar and even if he wanted to he probably couldn’t tell mom the truth.

What should have happened is that

mom sees through his lies and digs deeper into the inconsistencies between the words flowing through his smoky tongue and yellow teeth to the truth in his wrinkled eyes.

What actually happened is

mom was so drunk for so long that she forgot how well tongues could spin webs.

What should have happened:

dad realizes the error of his ways and apologizes, mom forgives him conditionally; it can’t happen again.

What actually happened:

dad apologizes when mom realizes the dollar amounts don’t lie, but dad is still lying.

What should have happened:

dad accepts the distance just enough to overcome it

what actually happened:

dad forgets that he isn’t looking at a map, one mile is not equivalent to an inch.

What actually happened:

dad makes a new life for himself far far away, no, dad writes himself in as a plus-one on someone else’s childhood, anyone but me, or my sister.

What should have happened:

dad makes it clear to his kids that he loves them, remembering birthdays and holidays enough to send cards to the kids he can’t eat breakfast with.

What actually happened:

dad’s words and actions don’t line up, kids don’t know whether to believe the hours on the phone telling stories (crying)

or the breath fogging up the front windows when he didn’t show up (again) (crying).

What should have happened:

dad sends what he can, money if not himself.

What actually happened:

dad doesn’t send himself, dad doesn’t send money, dad claims he’s broke, but again, the dollar amounts don’t lie, dad is still lying.

What should have happened:

dad admits he doesn’t know everything.

What actually happened:

his six year old daughter slaps his condescending face into silence.

What actually happened:

he didn’t get it the first time, she slaps him again a year later.

What should have happened:

dad apologizes.

What actually happened:

dad leaves. .end.

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chromiumSilver CommaI like to think I'm amazing
a year agoReply
Sorry to see this 😱😱 you are very strong

sydneyVerifiedco-creator of Commaful
a year agoReply
@devonsummers please do let us know if we can help in any way. these are great lessons for all the future fathers out there as well as people who may be going through something similar

devonsummersI write and sometimes I share it.
a year agoReply
Yeah, this is a true story about my biological father. Thanks for the hugs :)

a year agoReply
<3 <3 sending hugs

sydneyVerifiedco-creator of Commaful
a year agoReply
oh my gosh :( did this really happen :O are you okay? you are very brave and strong for sharing this! we are here for you!