If I'm being honest

by Me (Dee Belen)

The love you gave shimmered

Like the moonlight glosses over the rivers

And the seas

Caressing the streams of my soul

Like the sun beams profusely

You demanded to be felt on my skin

And I felt you

Oh how I felt your scorching rays embrace me

Like the trees cradle the air through their branches

On a windy Summers day

You

Like the air so humid

You lingered and lingered until it was hard to breathe

And like the grass stains my clothes

You've stained my heart

And how dare you

How dare you crash into me

Like the waves fragment into glass on the shores

Like the thunder collides with lightning

You've shattered me

And if I'm being honest

I want to be free

I want to be free of the heat

The light you've oh so badly burned me with

I want to be free

Of the sweaty palms

Of your heavy arms

Of the suffocating blankets you call love

And if I'm being honest

I want to be free

Free of the waiting if your sunrise

Will ever return to remind me of how warm it was

To feel your admiration

Your care for me

I want to be free

Of the waiting

The waiting and waiting

And waiting

For your light to flicker even just a little

Like the stars flicker in the night sky

But if I'm being honest

I just want to be free

Of the hope I so badly cling onto

The idea of you and I

Being right for each other