So many times people have said that to me, in every possible situation.
I’ve heard it in videos, I’ve heard it in school, I’ve heard it while I was on my bed crying, not knowing what to do anymore.
And I thought, what do I have that I could be grateful for?
Is there even anything in my life that I can truly appreciate when I can feel all the good things slip from my fingertips as soon as I try to reach them?
I decided that no, I cannot be grateful. I told myself that there was nothing to be grateful for because I can’t hold on to anything that keeps me going; it’s all going to pass someday.
All that time I just thought, my happiness won’t last, and through that veil of darkness in front of me, I could not see that just as my happiness was impermanent, so was my sadness.
One day, when I was sitting in my room staring into nothingness, trying so hard to feel anything at all but just ending up drowning myself in my own thoughts,
all of a sudden there was a spot of light in my darkly painted head that used to silence all my feelings.
I realized that we are in a constant state of change. In a way, happiness is temporary.
The colour of the sky during dusk, birds chirping in the morning, the feeling you get waking up next to your best friend; all those things will not last forever.
But just the same, sadness is temporary. Arguments end, darkness vanishes, the void in your mind closes itself over time.
It happens gradually, and you can’t heal immediately, but it will pass eventually.
So if everything in our lives, everything that surrounds us, is constantly changing, what is holding you back from doing what you love?
After all, the only person that will stay with you with certainty for the rest of your days is yourself. So do that thing that you’ve been meaning to do for months.
Be grateful for the good times and the bad times and for everything in between. Your time is now.
Plant flowers in your heart and wear them with pride.