And i was doing really well
Every time i thought of it
Id think "i dont need to touch that hell"
But ive gone for a while now with no release
Ive let enotions stack up beside sins
Fists would clench and forehead crease
Until i gave up and just gave in.
I cut myself tonight
There was more blood than i used to make
Nine red lines on my arm
And honestly i feel kinda fake.
Am i just begging for attention like my friend said?
Did i really need to do that?
Am i making up problems in my head?
Part of me thinks thats all true
But i honestly didnt know what else to do
Its been minutes since i last cut
At least now i dont want to rip out my own guts