I feel crazy and I'm not sure if it's the people around me or the fact that I'm so insecure that I make everything a problem.
I start to question people's intention the moment I meet them and I want someone to love me so bad I'll push myself to be everything for them even if it means losing the real me.
I never thought I was good enough and I don't know if I ever will be.
On the other hand I'm strong and I know what I deserve yet I still have false hope in all these guys around me that they won't hurt me. I've always been put second in everything.
There is always someone better. I hate myself because I don't hate anyone even if they do be wrong, but I love myself because I love everyone for who they are.
I want to make everyone feel amazing and I'm will to give my last dollar, lie,
push my morals aside just to make someone like me because I've never felt so alone in my life and if I keep doing these things for people they will stay right?
Im trying so hard to figure out who I am I think I'm losing who I was. God I care about people and I can't explain what it's like to not be anyone's favorite.
I'm I crazy? Because I feel crazy maybe that's why no one stays long.