torture is a part of me,i'm done with suffering you do not know how hard it is to no longer be able feel pain,
not be able to feel alive you're just a breathing corps so i plead the lord to give me back what he took from me i want to cry again,if not i'd rather die,i don't want to live this way,
or perhaps its a pay back for my sins if so know that i'm deely sorryfor what i did,i'll accept my punishement,purify my soul and clean the stains of my guilty hands,
i just want to be in peace with myself stop feeling like i'm someone else,there's a conflict inside you can see it through my silence,send a sign,
guide be to the right way this time it won't be the same i wasted all my chances but i learned from my mistakes even if still repeat them no how long it takes i'll fortify my faith,
i know you can hear me,even tho i'm not speaking i'm not crazy i'm a sinner save me,slave of confusion all those thoughts blocking my vision,i don't know what to do anymore,what am i made for?
i have a purpose? right?what am i supposed to do with all my unanswered questions?
is this devil's work?another filthy trick?or am i just imagining all this and completely loosing it :)