I found myself struggling in the mud,
quicksand of my emotions and insecurities.
But nobody can see me, so there's noone who can help.
I have looked back on my life and hated what I was
I looked back on why I am like this and I blame all
I was never wrong, I am always right
Forcing others to acknowledge my feelings
Never really caring about friends
The past that I was, is still the me now
Nothing's new, Nothing's change
A pathetic loser, caught up in another person's game
But what am I to do, as noone taught me life
If only I knew since I reached 3, I would have not used that in me.
I would have fought off the offenders
I would have been more pretty
I would have dated many or be a king's wife
But I didn't, I did nothing..
I allowed bad people and bad things to come near me
Was it because I was lonely?
If I knew how to fight and that I can fight
the future me would have been bright
Why is the reset button not available in this lifetime
How can I be better, how can I be me
All my hopes are vanishing
Why does it have to be me
The landslide of emotions, is burying me...
If you can teach me now, I'll change! Show me how and I'll follow! Just somebody, please help me...
My future is far and hard to reach As the chains of the past is still attached to me
This struggles are never ending But I really just want to rest...