The Purely Innocent Virgin

If I told you I was innocent would you think it’s the truth even though there’s blood on my hands and I’m still clutching the knife

If I told you I was pure would you believe me even though every part of my skin has been stained and not even holy water could make me clean again

If I told you I was a virgin would you feel it even though my body hasn’t felt like my own in a long time and I’m not sure if it ever will

I’ve been acquitted of the crime but I will never feel innocent

I’ve been seeking clarity but I will never be pure

I’ve been self-denying but I am not virginal