It feels lonely and cold. Feels like no one cares about me. Feels my choices in life are terrible. No one checks on me. No one asks how I feel. No one takes the time to listen and understand me and if they do I don’t feel like their understanding to comfort but to find a point and solve. Is that what I use to do? If so sorry to those I did it too I’m getting better.

A simple “hey you seem off what’s up?” Is what I want. A “hey was thinking about you” is a message I need. Is it that even though I do it to others I shouldn’t expect not necessarily them but someone to do the same to me? Who knows, and yes I have my GF but even then going to her with my problems feels like more of a burden on her than anything.

I don’t want her to believe she’s the cause of me feeling like this. Being an adult does have its upsides. Again my GF makes me happy, my family are my family so that’s good. So overall how’s being an adult...... conflicting.