it’s so weird, when i was younger and identified as a lesbian (age 11 to 18) i didn’t really struggle with internalized homophobia at all as far as i remember.
i mean, i was struggling with homophobia through my environment very much - i went to a catholic school and lived in a conservative small town, also with a very large catholic population.
and now that i’ve been identifying as bisexual for two years and only dated or gotten involved with men in that time - and am at a point right now where so much shit has happened that
i don’t know if i even want to get involved with men like this ever again (at least at the moment) - i totally feel it.
i live in a big, liberal, leftist city, have a lot of non-straight friends and am politically active in leftist groups.
but still, i feel like having a relationship with a woman would be somehow “less” than being with a man, even if i objectively know that’s not true.idk, i just think it’s weird.