I know this might sound mad but last week my bestfriend randomly blocked me on all forms of communication with no explanation, and it was one of the best things that has ever happened to me.
Yes, I missed her but the pros were better than the cons. I actually started talking to people, it the past week I’ve made more friends than I had in the 3 years I knew her.
I actually started going out more, taking better care of myself. I found myself being nicer and holding back from rude remarks.
It made me realise that yes I loved her but my bestfriend was toxic. Any friends I’d make she’d say how they’re annoying and she doesn’t like them.
If I’d make plans she’d complain about the people I’d be out with. I didn’t care too much about my appearance because it was like I don’t care what people think.
I was rude to the ones around me because I knew hey either way I’d always have my bestfriend so everyone else doesn’t matter.
I want my mistakes to be a lesson for everyone else.
Sometimes just because you love them whether it’s a friend, family, boyfriend, girlfriend, bestfriend- it doesn’t always been they’re the best to be around.
Yes, I’ll miss her, yes I’ll always remember our time together, still every night at 4 am I’ll think of our endless conversations, yes I’ll always want her back in my life,
and yes no matter what I’d still consider her my bestfriend. But at the end of the day? She’ll always be a toxic memory, a story to tell, but never will she be back in my life as a bestfriend.
So bestfriend, if you’re reading this, this is my goodbye.