So my manager told me I’m having a performance review on Monday…I don’t really know what that means, but I’m not looking forward to it.
He said to think about things that I feel I want to take on, things I need to improve on, etc… I dunno why, but it feels like I’m in trouble and I’m wondering if they’ll say “It’s been nice,
but you’re not quite what we thought when we hired you. Bye, bitch.
”Either way, these things are always hard for me because I never see myself having a future at any company and it’s hard for me to hide when they’re saying things like “in a few months,” “eventually,
” “soon”… I never know how long I’ll stick around for.
Truthfully (and hopefully they never find this blog) I’m already thinking of looking elsewhere after my student loan is paid, and maybe after I get my new guitar.
I feel like I get teased a lot here and it’s very stressful. It’s also super far for me to commute to and I get paid less than I did at a goddamn call centre.
The work is quite nice, but I dunno if it outweighs these other things.
Speaking of guitars, though… My goal is to get a new one (mid-range) after I finish the beginner book and I’m only two chapters away!
But these chapters are difficult, so I’ll probably linger for a while.
I haven’t been playing that regularly lately, but hopefully this new material will be the pick up I need (accidental guitar pun!)