So my bf and i were getting sexual n i accidentally said something that came off as like a r*pe play kink and then i triggered myself and he blamed me “having a breakdown because i had
a flashback ” on him “not letting him express his feelings” ???
I can’t help i was having flashbacks because i thought about rape play… now i just don’t wanna get sexual anymore because i know I’ll fuck it up or something and now i feel
like absolute fucking shit. I didn’t mean to say what i said, i meant it as in a power & control way. But i turned it into a huge deal and now I’m too fucking embarrassed.
Im so tired of fighting with him,we fight almost all the time. But i can’t cry, i cant show any sign of sadness. Cause if i do, then I’m the one thats “not letting him show emotion”…