uhm hi mom..
Happy mother’s day!
I know you can’t read this but I just wanna say I love you so much even though I sometimes can’t understand you nor your moods nor your intentions that even the most simple things
you say/tell me pisses me off (even if I know that I’m actually wrong).
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect but I know if you heard me say that you’ll get angry at me and tell me that you don’t want a perfect daughter you just want me to be me.
I’m sorry for hiding things from you. I’m sorry for telling lies. I’m sorry for holding a grudge against you.
I’m sorry for being depressed even though you’re already doing everything you can to make me happy. I’m sorry for being like this. I’m sorry for… probably everything.
I always say to myself that I need to stop being like this and like that. I need to be that angel I used to be.
I need to be the innocent happy daughter you once had instead of being like this, a stupid selfish prideful person. I hope you read the card I gave you with the letter in it.
I couldn’t actually remember what I wrote in the letter I gave you but according to the response to sent me I guess I somehow wrote a glimpse of what I actually want to say to you (this letter).
As of now, I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I want to tell you about my current situation. I want to tell you what’s actually happening.
I want to tell you that I’m really lonely and sad.
I want to tell you everything but I can’t because I know you already have problems on your own and I don’t want to be a burden and add up to your problems so that’s why I’m keeping
everything inside and hiding it with a smile. I want you to be happy that’s why I’m doing everything I can to help, from my academics to the things concerning my siblings. So please..
keep smiling and carry on a long happy life. That’s everything I guess. again happy mother’s day and I love you